Despite the Dents

Gazing out the window on my way back home
sitting beside you in the car
Looking at the traffic, coming the other way
I wonder where their lives are headed to
And if I drove a Mercedes
would I still be crazy?
Would I have a lot of business to tend to?
If I drove a Cadillac
would I be stuffin’ two kids in the back
And tell me which life has more value!

But we’ve been on this highway for quite a long time
I’ve seen enough country to settle down
We’ve traveled in the flats
and in the mountains all around
and I think it’s time to put
my two feet on the ground
but if I drove a pickup truck
would I be runnin’ out of luck
when it came to pass the buck
you’d let me down?What direction do I drive
to get the best out of my life
Does it matter which car you bring through town?
I think about the passers-byDo they ever break out the maps?
Do they have business or beauty on their minds?
Do we have anything in common
besides the route that we’re on?
Are they directionless and wasting
all their time?

I see one man in a Jeep
and his woman is fast asleep
and he’s singing a song I cannot hear
Is there family on the way
Does his life get better day to day
Does he keep what’s important to him dear?
I think we’ll keep on ridin’
down this road that we’re on

We’ll notice the signs and hold hands along the way
Nothing is for certain a
bout the world we live in today
And I wouldn’t have it any other way
Think I’m happy with my car
it’s taken us pretty far
and I know sometimes I don’t seem quite content
but the time traveling with you
seems like the right thing to do
think it’s all been time well spent

Despite the Dents!

She Wants to Win

Little child inside
Runnin’ away from me
I don’t know where she’s going
But she knows who she wants to be
Always has that message she keeps
Remember the family
Still that child wants to win
Pound her down and she’ll get up
And fighthard again
That child, that child, she wants to win!

See the steel look
She has in her eyes
Someone’s tried to fill her
Fill her full of lies
Still she stands solid
Still she stands wise
But inside that child she wants to win
keeping her away, away from the family sin
You know, pound her down and she’ll get up and fight
Hard again
that child that child she wants to win.
That child that child wants to win

Open up the gateways
Of how you really feel
That’s what someone taught her
That’s what they said was real
They never quite explained themselves
or how you really should deal but inside that child wants to win
And I’m keeping her away
Away from the family sin you know
And that child, that child wants to win
Pound her down and she’ll get up and fight
Hard again, that child, that child wants to win
That child that child wants to win.

Managed to get ahead now and became a wife
Settled down reluctantly and made herself a good life
Brought up one of her own now, to pass on to the family tree
She’s a living legacy
Lookin’ in that child’s eyes
Sets my spirits free
Cause that child inside my heart still wants to win

And I’m keeping her away, away from the family sin you know
And you can pound her down and she’ll get up and fight
Hard again!
That child, that child wants to win
That child that child wants to win
And she turns to me in the mirror
With a grin.

Well Be Just Fine

Have you ever laughed
Until you cried
Have you ever loved
So hard you thought you’d die?
Have you ever been emptied
So much that you’re full?
Have you ever wondered

What the hell you learned in school?
And I remember Good ol’
Days I remember love and silly ways
I remember simple times
And damn good wine
And I will tell you this
We’re gonna be just fine

Have you ever been encountered
By strange gray hairs
Popping out of your head
You never thought they’d be there
You never knew the time could go so fast
You wonder what to do to try to make it last.

Chorus

Have you ever caught a fish And let it go?
Wonder where it swam off to
I guess we’ll never know
And all the wonders of the world
Just swimmin’ in your mind
Love’s the truth and worry’s no use
Cause we’llwe’ll be just fine!
Just fine, just fine, just fine!

Don’t Know How to Deal

You gotta certain kind of power
I can see it in your eyes
spendin’ all this time talking to yourself
’cause you’re filling me up with lies

Well I see what you’re doin’
And I’m aware of the game you’re playing
Who do you think you’re conning baby
Who do you think you’re screwin’?

And I listen to what other people say
and I know they know you differently
Either way, you say what you say
and I’m left with what I see

I have a different interpretation
about your smooth little style
I’m filled with some aggravation
but I cover it with a smile
And you call me on the phone,
you tell me you wanna spend some time
Rack me into wondering when
and the months and days go by
I haven’t heard hair nor hide
And you call me up to do it all again

And you’re talking to me
like I’m just some friend
Well I’m sick of the way you’re treating me
And I’m tired of how I feel
The real point of this story is
You just DON’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL!

You don’t know how do to deal
You don’t know how to deal
Don’t ask me how I feel
You just don’t know how to deal

Talk to me baby don’t shut me out
I’ve been having my thinking
I’ve been having my doubts
I don’t know what you want from me
I don’t know what you need
I’m not gonna watch you cut on me
just to see me bleed

Talk to me baby don’t shut me out
I’ve been having my thinking baby
I’ve been having my doubts
You don’t know what to do with me
I don’t know what to do for you
It’s some kinda sickness
It’s some kinda madness
The hell we put each other through

Me 4 Me

Some people know me
Others think they do
They see the outside
But they don’t know what is true
All I have is who I am
Could you see me as a friend
There will be a day that I can truly be
Could you love me for me

Would you love me for me?
Don’t put me on a pedistool
Or in the ground
Don’t hold me to a trial
Or turn my world upside-down
When you see something ugly
Let it be
Could you still see the beauty in me
And could you love me for me?

Cause we’ve been down this road before my friend
We’ve beaten this horse do death
We’ve had the hard way and
We’ve taken our tolls and,
don’t you think we deserve
The very best?
Don’t you think we deserve the very best?
And I’ve had my times
And I’ve had my doubts
I’ve had my struggles
and I’ve turned them inside out.
Now I’m doin’ fine
Considering where I’ve been
And a wonder sweeps over me
Would I do it all over again?
And I still see you as my best friend
Would you love me in the end
Would you do it all over again?
Would you love me for me?
Could you love me for me?

Cause we’ve been down this road before my friend
We’ve beaten this horse to death
We’ve had the hard way and
We’ve taken our tolls and
Don’t you think we deserve the very best?
Don’t you think we deserve the very best?
Love me for me
Can you let that be?
I want you I want you to love love love love me for me
Ooh yea I tried so very hard to do it on my own
I’m so alone
Won’t you love
me for me

Pathetic

I don’t know what’s inside me
That can’t let it all be
I don’t know what part of me
I’m not willing to see I keep knockin’ on that door
I’ve been there, so many times before
Looking at things just brings me down I’m so sad you’re not around
I don’t know why I choose
The things that I choose
I don’t know how I love so much
And always feel like the fool
People see
What they want to see
Can anyone understand the inner side of me?
Please?

It appears that you walk on by
Away from love
Without batting and eye
You got everything
So wrapped up
And you’re waiting for time to go by
Heal the wounds of intensity
Of a love that once set you free
Oh my heart What about me? Will I have to watch
Another one slip on by Will there be another love
That I’ll have to survive I can’t take it anymore
Broken heart is too much to endure I still stay and you walk away

Everything’s a Trade

You call me on the phone just the other night
You were talking about love tellin’ me about your life
You say you don’t have enough time with your wife
and oh eveything’s a tradeWe worry about money and how much we have
We worry about our good times somehow turning bad
Still the best times that I ever had
were just sitting in the sun
Kickin’ back, havin’ simple fun
and oh everything’s a tradewhether you’re sitting in the sun or in the shade
When is there time to sit with grandfolks
Listen to their stories and tell their dirty jokes
Who’s got the energy on children to spend
The time to take out nurture a friend
And oh is it worth the trade
The blood, sweat and the tears
for the money that you made

And oh is it worth the time
putting your energy into this daily grind
I don’t know why I choose
Take time out for your life
I said to him spend more time with your wife
You won’t regret it in the end
Take time out for your self
You’re a good friend
I take the time to tell you that
Time you’ll never get back
So take the time and spend it right
Time you never get back
Make it worth the trade
Time you never get back
Every thing is a trade

No One Home

People worrying about kids today
Can’t just go out
Tell them to play
Gotta rescue them
Gotta rescue them
From their painLook at all the eyes, in the room
See all the lies they had to consume
They don’t know it yet
It will come around all too soon
It started when mom she had to work
And dad, he became a real jerk
Priorities shifted, expectations lifted
And no one’s home!

So where do they go today
And who teaches kids how to play
No one setting the grounds
People putting them down
But no one’s home
No one drawing the lines
Everything’s fine
But no one’s home

Most are still wearing the mask
Fear all the questions they have to ask
These are our youth
Searching for truth
But no one’s home

So what does it take
To be good
And how does it feel
To be understood
These are their questions
Their need for expression
But no one’s home

It Matters to Me

I’ve seen you down this road before.
I’ve seen you wonder if your life was worth living for.
I’ve seen you fading in and fading out
I know what you’re thinkin’
and I know what you’re talking about.Did you think that I cared?
Did you know that it mattered to me?
I see the pain and I feel the shame
And I know, there’s nothing to set you free.
And it matters to me.
Now you sit quietly in your seat.
Feel that same old feeling
From your head down to your feet.You don’t think there’s anybody that understands
Nobody that knows who can take you by the hand.
Did you think that I cared?
That there was once a time I sat in that same chair.
Now you see all of me and who you want to be
And I know, I know your still scared.
And it matters to me.
And it matters to me.

(Bridge)

It matters to me who you are.
It matters to me where you go
It matters to me what you do
It matters to me, the pain you’re going through
And it matters to me.

So you go, and walk out the door
Keep in mind what you are doin’ it all for.
Someday you’ll get what you wish
Until then sometimes life,
can be a son-of-a-bitch!

But know, that I care.
And know, that it matters to me.
Know that I understand
And I’ll take you by the hand
And you’ll never never know how deep
That it matters to me.

Thanksgiving 2000

If we were meant to walk this Earth
We all must walk if free
If we were meant to live with each other
We must let each other be.
If we were meant to stay alive
We all must truly thrive
Passion inside our hearts
Teach us to survive.

Was a while when white man came
And struck the Natives down
Done away with their peaceful culture
And suck them to the ground

We saw something different, different then what we are
Locked them on a reservation and placed them behind bars
Ahhh-ieeee yaaa

We must learn to love our world
Treasure each boy and girl
We must respect each other’s dance
Give each other a chance

Mother Earth feeds us all
And we take more than what we need

Some learn how to hate and others are raised with greed
But if you are oppressed, if you’re not the “chosen one”
You should still have a right to walk this Earth
And feel the glory of the sun!
Ahhhh-ieee yaaa

Can humanity over come?
Can we undo what’s done?
Let’s walk together?
Let’s leave the Earth better!!!

Break the Chains

Set me free
Oh out of these crazy chains
Set me free
So little to lose so much to gain
Let me go where I go
you’ll never know
let me be let my spirit carry meHold me near then set me free
keep me close then let me be
I am woman of opposing needs
I am woman yes indeed!So take the time to listen to what I don’t say
Take the time to tell me you love me anyway
and keep me out of your box
break the chains
throw away the locks

Hold me near then set me free
keep me close then let me be
I am woman of opposing needs
I am woman yes indeed!

Break the chains
throw away the locks
keep me out of your box
I am woman of opposing needs
I am woman yes indeed

You Don’t Even Know Me

You don’t even know me
You don’t give a damn
You don’t have the time or the space
To put me in your planYou act like you got it together
You act like you’re so tough
I just take one look at you
And know you’re not enough
Every time I try to explain
It gets turned around to cause me pain
Instead of love you want it your way
Make me suffer make me pay

People try to understand me
They don’t have a clue
They have no idea who I am
Or what I can do

They don’t even know me
They don’t understand
All they see is a rightious girl
With a guitar in her hands

So quick to look
So quick to judge
Leave it up to you to hold your grudge
You don’t see what it cost
Have no idea of what you’ve lost

Cause you don’t even know me
Don’t ask me how I feel
You don’t wanna go there
Get to what is real
Take a little piece of me into your soul
Never sacrifice or loose control
Make me angry makes me sad
Could have been the best thing you ever had

You don’t even know me
You never took the time!
Maybe it is my fault and love is totally blind
I say you don’t even know me
Isn’t that just a shame
You don’t even know me
Been the source of my pain
You don’t even know me
And isn’t that really too bad
You don’t even know me
Could have been the best thing you ever had!

Just Wondering

Just wondering
Where I will be
When you discover
You don’t need meJust wondering
What you’ll do
When you recognize the hell I put you through
We don’t want to talk about it
But we do anyway
Try to rack our brains
For a way to make it o.k.
We don’t want to go there In our own minds
Rather pack that shit up
And leave it all behind
Leave it all behind
(Just wondering, just wondering about love) Just wondering
What it would be like
To be on the right side
The right side of this fight

Just want to know
What I will say
When you look at me
Down the road someday

Just want to be there
Now is the time
Pack up all our stuff
Leave our lives behind
All the things we’ve worked for
Would it be all gone
Simply do to natural law
All things pass on.
All things pass on.
Just wondering
Just wondering about love
Just wondering it there is a God, up above
Just wondering
Just wondering about love

Little Mindedness

3:00 in the morning the sun’s far from up
Don’t understand how twisted up this became
One minute the hero
Next it’s turned to mud
The people I love are caught up in this game
— how strange–
And I’m tired of proving my worthiness
Can be so hard to simply rise above
I’m sick of imposed fears, and
I’ve cried all my tears
Who are my friends, when push comes to shove?

Some give you compliments
While they’re pissing on your shoes
They pat you on the back
But can’t wait for you to loose
Little minded folks
With over active tounges
Telling their inside jokes
They don’t know what they’ve done
You be on the other side for once
You who judge and tell me how it feels
Pull out all of your uglies and show me all your pain

And then tell me what is real
Then tell me how does it feel?
Cause I know what it’s like to walk through fire!
And I know how it feels to be in shame
Don’t get jealous of me
Due to your insecurities
The energy of who I am you can’t contain!
My laughter, you can’t restrain!
And my love, will forever remain!
My love, will forever remain!

Put Me Back Together

What would it take
What would it cost
To replace everything I’ve lost
I’ve gone and done it
I’ve thrown it all away
Prayin’ and wishin’
I’ll se a better day
Now you go and leave
Leave me all alone
Don’t bank on me to be
Waiting by the phone
Even though I want to
I don’t want to care
I feel the emptiness
The hole that is there
I tried everthing darlin’
I did the best I could
Did everything that I
Thought I should
I took it to the edge
And took it a step more
Everything I had
Everything I could endure
I don’t know
What exactly to live for
I had so many things
I thought were in store
Now it’s all shattered and I
Feel it commin’ down
Time to pack my things
And move from this town

Whatever happened to Humpty Dumpty
What ever happened to
All the Kingsmen?
What ever happened to
My heart? Can I find some glue and
Put me back together
Put me back together again?!!!
Put me back together
Put me back together
You were so CRAZY in my mind!
Rose colored glasses, no..I was blind
You were so heavy in the weight

I just couldn’t see straight
I just couldn’t concentrate
I just couldn’t carry the wait!
So put me back together
Put me back together
Put me back together!

We’re Not Done

Where are you goin’
And who will you be
When your heart is open
And when you’re set free
Am I in the picture
Or just part of the story
Will you reminiss
About the pain or your gloryAnd I’d love to take you on a moon light ride
Dance in the sun and smell your hair
I’d love to look deep in your eyes
And see the love you hold for me still there
Do you still care?We’ve been through some rough road
But also had our fun
The energy got burned up
But we swear we’re not done
We’ve come through some hard ones
Friends would agree But when you look at me
Tell me what do you see.
Do you see a woman that totally adores you
Do you see her just waiting to get in
Do you see her look at you with eyes of wonderment
Waiting to know where you’ve been?
Where’ve you been?

You can hold on to resentments
I’m totally to blame we can both point our fingers
We can both feel ashamed We can choose to be right
We can choose to keep score
We can go on like this forever
Just like it was before
But I’m tellin’ you that I love you
It doesn’t matter to me what we’ve done
I’ll still hold you close and love you the most
Regardless of what we become
Where just not done
We’re just not done!